See that girl on the left in that picture? That was a very unhealthy version of me back in June 1999 just a few months prior to finding out I had cervical cancer for the first time. I look like I’m not even present in my body. It’s baffling to me how I could have managed to get to that place but I can tell you it was through a lifetime of self-defeating thoughts, driven by extreme emotional turmoil about who I was. I had no self-esteem. I thought I did but I was fooling myself. I can very clearly see now what I was in denial about back then. I was married for the first time in 1986 and shortly after went through a painful divorce in 1990 after finding out that my husband was having an affair. I was only 30 and felt like a failure. I really didn’t have any support. After that marriage ended I did what many other people do and jumped back into the dating pool, not giving myself proper time to heal. In 1991 I moved in with the guy I was dating at the time, which seemed to make sense since my parents and brother were headed to North Carolina and I didn’t want to leave my great-paying corporate job. We got married in August of 1995 and after his father passed suddenly a few years later, things went downhill for us; we filed for a separation and eventually filed for divorce at the end of 1999. In March of 2000 I moved into my own apartment after giving him the house we bought together and was in the middle of a sound sleep when a very loud, booming male voice yelled at me, “YOU HAVE CANCER, GO TO THE DOCTOR!!!” This is where my story begins…
I can remember lying in bed at night talking to angels and guides around the age of 4 years old, only at that age I didn’t fully understand what I was doing. Sometimes the feelings were overwhelming and I’d get scared. I looked for guidance but my psychic ability wasn’t looked upon favorably so it wasn’t until 2000, when I had my first challenge with cancer that I recognized things needed to shift in my life. That really helped bring my awareness back on line. Major life altering events are always the catalyst for bringing us back in touch with our spiritual nature, and even though I was always spiritual, the cancer catapulted me onto a whole new path of looking for answers as to how I developed cancer and what I needed to do to get rid of it and make sure it never came back. There was no looking back.
The Process of Discovery
After the second run in with cancer in 2005, I got married again…third time’s a charm right?? Not really; maybe in theory, but it did give me exactly what I needed as well as what he needed although I didn’t really see it at the time. During this time I met a Chiropractor who was on the cutting edge of healing. Through his forward thinking, he saw the amount of knowledge I had already gained through the process of discovery and suggested I enroll in the Institute for Integrative Nutrition to gain a better understanding of nutrition and Mind-Body-Soul wellness. IIN provided a wealth of information on nutrition ranging from raw food diets to macrobiotic diets, but they also brought in so many wonderful modalities such as Ayurveda, Meditation, and Kundalini Yoga, as well as many other healing modalities through some very amazing leading-edge speakers like Debbie Ford, John Douliard, Dr. Esselstyn, and others every week in person to assist in our journey. It was the best time of my life. I was in class with about 800 other like-minded people and we shared our insights, our stories and a meal in the first Whole Foods I’d ever visited, which was right downstairs from our class located in Columbus Circle in New York City. I was loving life and in doing so I activated my joy which activated my intuitive abilities… I started seeing auras again as my third eye was opening again! Life was getting more interesting and the cancer was in remission. Woo-hoo! I continued working on me and took a Reiki 1 & 2 class while attending the IIN program. As the program was coming to an end the chiropractor rented me a tiny room in his office so I could see clients. I was still working my very stressful corporate job but pushed myself to stay focused on my wellness, and soon I was beginning to feel like Lucy in the Peanuts cartoon with people stopping in to ask me health-related questions. I realized I was on to something! So many people were sick and I didn’t want to end up with cancer a third time. This is when I started to dig deeper and finally connect the dots…emotions and thoughts marry up and, yes that’s what makes us sick. I can remember the feeling I had in that moment, realizing I never needed to be sick again!
Following My Calling
I had such a strong calling to be a healer. I wasn’t even sure what that meant at the time but it was enough to push me to leave my very well-paying corporate job in 2008 in the beginning of the recession to begin a new career in my own healing practice. Side note, my husband was not happy but I was, for the first time ever! I had the calling and needed to follow it. In 2012 I had a real aha moment as I opened more my intuitive ability through that very intense and amazing period which was the first activation to Ascension. I was already open because of my psychic experiences as a child but this was different. I continued to explore different avenues and philosophies, opening and engaging in my psychic ability all the way. My Reiki teacher had put a deck of Rider Waite Tarot cards in my hand and I found myself exploring those. The more I explored the faster I was opening and enjoying my life, even through some of the hardships like losing my mom during my divorce in June of 2013. The pain was there but the work kept me grounded and strong, pushing me to continue to explore all that was in front of me. I’m grateful for all of those experiences!
The last few years I’ve had many mentors from all over the U.S. who helped me make sense of what I was connecting to and receiving from my guides. I always allowed my guides to point me in the direction of who the best person for me was in that moment. I now take all of the information, modalities, and sacred tools and apply them to my sessions in both a healing capacity as well as through spiritual guidance. I give you the best of all I have to help you achieve your best self. I’m still learning, growing and evolving. We should never stop, because it’s a pathway; one step leads to a new awareness and the next step to another new awareness, and so on. We are here for the purpose of our soul’s evolution; it’s an excavation through our human experience to come to fully embrace our authenticity. In standing fully in our authenticity we find our truth, which when harnessed and embodied, unlocks the magic that life has to offer and sets our soul on fire. There is no better feeling than to know fully who you are. Follow me and I will lead the way…