Before that could happen, I had to make my way through customs, which was surprisingly easy. After a short walk, there they were! The moment I saw them, the last nine months played through my mind like a movie—everything we had done together, the uncertainty, the trust we had built, and all we had walked through along the way.  And now the moment we had waited for had arrived: we were standing face to face, sharing hugs, laughter, and tears of joy.

After retrieving my luggage, we made our way to the car. I felt excitement building for the incredible adventure that awaited me and my gracious hosts.  As I buckled in, I kept thinking how this was really happening.  I was finally in England, a place I had only dreamt about visiting.

Driving away from the airport, I was in awe. It was November, the day before Thanksgiving in the U.S., and as I looked out the window on the drive to their home, all I could see was lush green everywhere. Back home, everything was already turning brown and drab as the days rolled into winter. The stark contrast made me feel like the faeries were always at work in this magical land far, far away.

As we drove, we talked about the things they still needed to do to complete their day. Upon arriving at their house, I met my client’s teenage daughter who was attending a home-schooling program, her mum as well as two dogs and a cat.

We took my luggage to my room on the second floor. It was beautiful and welcoming; my clients had made some upgrades to make it even more comfortable than I could have imagined. When I first arrived on the second floor, I noticed stairs led to a third floor, where the master suite was located.

To my delight, before leaving me to unpack they opened a door at the back of my bedroom and to my surprise I had my own private bathroom, which was larger than my bedroom!  I had a shower and a free-standing tub unlike any I had ever seen before! It felt like living inside a storybook. When the house was designed, all the bedrooms had their own private bathrooms.

Their house was beautifully designed, and I was happy to have a beautiful space to relax in and unpack my suitcases.  It had been a long day, and I just wanted a minute to sit and decompress after the long flight and car ride to their home.

The room had a very large closet with two doors that had built in compartments for everything.  It was like one of those custom bedroom designer closets.  I loved it, the space made it so easy for me to lay out the clothes I had bought with me.

I finished unpacking and went to the window.  I was looking out into a beautifully manicured backyard with a gazebo.  It was so sweet looking it made me want to paint it.  As I was standing there, I started to realize how far away from home I was.  I had left everything behind, the packing, the money worries, the uncertainty, and the destination I couldn’t see.  It would all be there, waiting for me when I returned home.

That moment felt heavy, like a weight sitting on me.  I sat on the bed and began thinking of how I was losing precious time packing while I was here having the trip of a lifetime with all costs covered, it felt in some ways, like I had won a lottery.  But still there was this unresolved part of my life lingering overhead.

The feeling I was having was the despair I thought I left behind.  I knew I had to shift myself or I’d ruin the next three weeks with thoughts about what I should be doing right now.  I started to think deeply, was that really my truth?  Did I need to go into despair and down the victim rabbit hole having nothing resolved?  I know how this all works.  We’re always exactly where we are meant to be in every moment.

Being here at this time under the pressure I was feeling surrounding the move had great purpose too, didn’t it?  If I was my client asking for help in this situation that’s what I’d say, look for the gift in all of it even when you can’t see it.

Control had followed me all the way to England.

I needed to write, writing always helped me but I left my journal behind, so I pulled some drawing paper out of my book and started to write a gratitude list.  That’s one thing I can always count on to help me shift.

The first thing I wrote was how this trip found me; I hadn’t looked for it.  I wrote how I had needed to open to receiving.  If I could receive an amazing gift such as this, couldn’t I also receive the perfect outcome to my move?  Wouldn’t the breadcrumbs take me to the right place in that situation just as it had brought me here, to my dream trip with these generous and amazing people?  Couldn’t the new living situation be a replica with someone to welcome me that was just as generous and amazing?

I could feel myself shifting, it was working!   The heaviness was lifting. I was feeling better, happy and thankful for the goodness that had come my way.  I was choosing England fully, every experience and put my thoughts about trying to solve my housing situation on hold.  If I didn’t let go, I would miss this amazing adventure completely.  I made the choice to let go and stop dwelling despair of my move and choose England and fun!  I put my mock journal away and got myself together so I could go downstairs and join my hosts.  I was in a place of deep gratitude and looking at all the good in each moment.

Later that evening, we went to collect their son from school, which would be like high school here in the states. He looked very scholarly in his proper school uniform with the school’s crest on the blazer. He was waiting for us at his day house, a place where students can study, socialize, get counsel, or rest between classes. I realized this is how the Harry Potter stories are depicted since the writer is British. The students report to different houses—it’s a real thing in England. Now all of it made sense to me!  When I mentioned it to my hosts and their son, they didn’t think it was remarkable in any way, just another thing in their world while for me it was as if the magic of the books and movies had suddenly come to life.

When we arrived back at the house, we settled in to enjoy a bite to eat, a warming fire, and some good conversation. During our time together, we began discussing the places I wanted to experience while I was there.  The ones in my mind were places like Stonehenge Glastonbury and London.  They stated they would happily take me wherever I wanted to go but I really didn’t know where that was.  Being in England felt a little like coming home in a way and that was enough for me.

Since the rain was not cooperating, we needed to wait a day or two before embarking on our journey. It was during those first few days that I got to know my hosts on a deeply personal level. Each morning, I would wake up to a lovely cup of coffee their mum made for all of us. Some mornings we had porridge, and others we had sourdough bread, jam, cheeses, and an assortment of goodies for breakfast.

It always made me feel happy inside.  I felt like I could just stay in this world and live here in this beautiful land.  I was drinking English tea in… England, I had to sit with that for a moment.  It made me giggle.  So silly perhaps but so important to me in a way I can’t explain.  It felt like coming back to me and some moments felt sad when I thought why wasn’t I born in England?  I’d have an accent.

I must admit it made me stop a few times to consider if there was something else going on here.  Something much deeper at a soul level.

The next afternoon they asked if I wanted to take a ride to stable to watch their daughter ride her horse in the indoor arena. The pair were beautiful together! The barn was rustic and charming, having a very old English feel to it with horses in every stall. I would’ve been happy going there every day.  It brought me back to a time in my life when I was around the same age riding at a local stable, but it was never as picturesque as this.  The stable was nestled in a location that was a bit remote and required us to cross a narrow bridge before pulling onto the grounds to park.

The grounds were green and lush.  It looked as though it would be a perfect setting for any movie where there were horses ridden across a field. I wondered if the riders or even the barn owner appreciated the beauty or if they were so accustomed to it, it went unnoticed.  My hosts seemed to have an appreciation for the beauty as well as the horses which were all magnificent. I never imagined I’d be connecting with horses during my visit to England, yet here I was, surrounded by a stable full of them.

There I stood breathing in the familiar smells of horses that I’ve loved since I was a little girl. I’m thousands of miles from the life I left behind along with the move I put on hold, I was standing in a beautiful old English riding stable- something I had wanted to experience for as long as I could remember.

Here, right in this moment I felt my heart sing with joy.

It was magical, and I had found something familiar.

Horses.

Of course there were horses.

I found myself thinking back to the last time I had been asked to surrender and trust, it was 2018, it seems so long ago.  Things were very different.  I was married for eight years to someone I thought would be in my life forever, but that was not the case, and we filed an amicable divorce in 2013.  In a funny but not funny way the divorce papers got lost in the court system twice, so I was in a holding pattern still living there with no place to go.

After five years living in limbo our divorce had become final, but it was clear to me there was great purpose in our living together during that time, we healed what couldn’t be healed while married.  During the time we spent together we went through ups and downs, and now we could leave each other in a way that felt right.  I knew once the healing happened and the compassion and friendship restored the timeline to leap would come.  What I couldn’t know was that it wouldn’t happen in the way I thought it would unfold.

At the same time, I was healing the end of my marriage my friend was healing her heart. Her fiancé passed unexpectedly and a few weeks later found herself in need of a new place to live.  Her landlord told her he decided to sell the house, and she needed to find another place quickly.  Change was happening for both of us, her move immediate, mine had no pressure.

As she looked for houses and apartments, I slowly began receiving glimpses of a house coming in to play and thought it was going to be her house.  My insight showed me a house that looked like a ranch at the end of a court, surrounded by trees and the house number would add to 11.  When it first started to unfold, I was confused because I felt like these were my signs for a house I was supposed to live in, especially the sign that the number would add to 11.  This was the number my mom would use to get my attention from the other side.

I stepped back from thinking and started to allow, as I did, I was feeling this house connecting with me but still had no idea how, when or where so I waited, still looking for breadcrumbs.

One day my friend called and asked if I wanted to grab coffee and do a ride along on a house she found.  It had a high vaulted ceiling and a banana blade ceiling fan, this was the best part of the house, the rest not so much but, I was off that day so off we went, with coffee in hand to do a walk through.

On the way to look at that house, another friend called out of the blue and asked what I was doing.  I told her I was looking at a house with my other friend.  She asked, “are you moving in together?”  We both laughed at the question and said, “No just looking at a house for her”.   My friend on the phone proceeded to tell me she had a house that just opened, the tenant gave notice.  She said it was the same house she showed me the month before asking if I wanted to rent the basement apartment, I turned it down because it was a studio.  I remember telling her I thought the house was vacant, at the time she said no but the tenant just gave notice, and it would be available in a few weeks.  I this felt like this was the nod from the universe I’d been wanting, the crumbs were lining up!

We decided to see it after the first house which had been a bit of a disappointment except for the vaulted ceiling and fan.  So off we went to see the house we just found out about.  I received the address and smiled to myself.  It was in a court!  When we pulled up, I was surprised to see what looked like a ranch sitting at the back end of the court and to no surprise the house number added up to 11!

This was the house.  I knew it without going in.

As we walked through the front door the first thing my friend saw was the vaulted ceiling with a huge fan and was immediately sold on the house.   It seemed to have everything we both needed.  In a quick decision we both agreed this two bedroom one-bathroom split level was perfect, and we should share it to keep rent down. That was October 2018 and how the story started with us sharing a house together.  Follow the breadcrumbs, they know the way!

Having been a spiritual coach for 20 plus years I know how this works, I knew my only job was to allow for it to occur “effortlessly” without question or doubt.  I needed trust, and lots of it!  The deepest kind that fills me with excitement and an ever so small amount of fear.  My first reaction would be to control the outcome, trying to “figure” it out.  That action always takes me in the wrong direction.

That was control creeping in, something I’d mastered to feel safe in life.

Over this last year I’ve learned this is one of the things I need to work through on a soul level in this lifetime.  When I’m afraid and feel something might go wrong, my first instinct is to jump in to save the day by controlling the situation, usually at my expense.

Eventually, I realized this was tied to something much deeper: self-worth

Whenever I didn’t feel like life was able to fully support me, I worked hard to make sure it did.

Looking back, I can recognize the patterns I was still learning to understand. Living with my friend changed me because it forced me to see parts of myself, I hadn’t been willing—or perhaps ready—to see before.

Looking back at 2018, I can see why managing the outcome felt comfortable. I knew where I was heading, what to expect, and how I needed to handle the journey.

Almost eight years later, that wasn’t the case.

I was being asked to allow what was unfolding without interfering with it. It didn’t need my management; it needed my alignment.

That meant being agreeable before I could see the higher outcome or any outcome for that matter!  So, I did the only thing I could, I surrendered and let go.  I was once again following the breadcrumbs but unlike my past intuitive insight hit on the house, this time I wasn’t trying to get ahead of whatever was unfolding.

So, while my friend was busy wrapping up her business in NY and looking for a house to rent for her and her daughter in Florida, I was making myself frantic preparing for a last-minute trip to the UK for a three-week stay to meet a couple I had only known through our Zoom sessions together the past nine months.  I’d done a session or two with the husband, who found me through my YouTube channel.  He was a holistic coach working in a similar capacity to me.  We immediately clicked in our sessions.

It was almost a year later that he reached out, knowing my own journey with cancer and the work I do because of it, to see if I could be the support needed to get his wife through her treatments for the life changing diagnosis she received of cancer January 2024.

For nine months, we met every week as she navigated treatment. I also held space for both between sessions when something came up and they needed additional support.

In September 2024, her latest test results showed complete metabolic remission.

They wanted to give me something in return as a way of expressing their gratitude for the support and connection we’d shared during those nine months.

They asked If they could fly me to their home in a beautiful location in England where I would stay with them for three weeks.

I felt a bit stressed at the idea of going since I hadn’t found a new place to live and would lose those three weeks’ time being away reducing my packing time considerably.

At first I thanked them for their generous offer but declined.

They insisted I needed to receive.

That word stopped me.  I felt choaked up at the thought of someone wanting to give me such and incredible gift as this.

Receiving sounded so simple, but I was beginning to understand how much easier it had always been for me to give.

We discussed it again and I finally said yes, realizing receiving this gift was another level of healing for me that I couldn’t anticipate.  I hadn’t had a trip anywhere in a long time and began to realize I truly deserved a magical getaway to this far away land I’d always longed to see and explore!

I’ve always had a heart connection with the UK.  I love the magic, beauty and architecture.  If an opportunity presented, I could live there, I knew it on a soul level so with excitement and a sense of adventure in my heart I packed my bags and left the Wednesday before Thanksgiving.

I found my seat in Business Class on British Airways—also included as part of this incredible gift—and found myself thinking about the Astro-cartography reading I’d had before leaving.

There it was again. My need to be prepared disguised as being practical. Apparently, I needed to know where I should live, just in case England stole my heart and I decided to move there!

Omg, I am so funny.

The woman reading my chart told me England was in my heart chakra zone, a place where love and relationships could blossom.

And then she said something I wasn’t expecting…

“There’s one place I don’t think you should EVER move to because it’s on your Pluto line…”

Florida.

Of course it was Florida!

I settled into my seat, headed toward my heart country and the adventure waiting for me there, completely unaware that life had another plan.

So here I am in sunny Florida!  I still can’t believe I’ve lived here for 17 months already.  My argument was always “the heat” but now that I live here, on the Gulf Coast, my argument could also include snakes, Palmetto bugs (a fancy name for huge flying roaches, and no I don’t have them in my house), scorpions (yes those have been in the house, I’ve had one in the bathroom and one in the kitchen sink) lizards of all shapes and sizes, an armadillo (he’s my exterminator for ticks and fleas and anything else), snails that when they are actively moving, antenna out, they make me feel like I’m in a Dr. Doolittle movie, my crow army who loves the occasional peanuts I throw out for them and well I could go on and on but you get the idea.

A few weeks back a fancy white peacock or peahen, I didn’t get that close, flew in for a brief encounter as a nod that a resurrection of sorts was happening.  I feel like it was a direct manifestation after my client Liz, sent me photos of a recent trip abroad that included a spectacular white peafowl.  I’d only experienced the blue colorful ones, never a white one and thought about it for a few days thinking I might paint it.  Then one afternoon a week or two later, the two male peacocks are screaming very load, they are loud to begin with.  I decided to go see what all the commotion was about.  When I stepped outside, I hear a new call that was more guttural and deeper than what I was used to hearing from the peacocks.  I stepped out far enough into the yard and there it was, a beautiful regal looking white peafowl sitting on the mound of dirt we use to refill the coops after a hard rain.  The Universe had responded to my desire to experience one in person.  I’ve never seen one around here in all the time I’ve been here, come to think of it I’ve never seen any peafowl, not the blue ones either.  It was clear something magical and other worldly was taking place.  I needed to be extra present to see what the true message was here so I could flow in alignment and continue to be in a place of receiving.

Themes surrounding self-confidence, rebirth, renewal and Divine connection were bringing me into higher states of consciousness and at the same time life was slowing me down.  I wasn’t rushing to something I thought I needed to do or going to stores to self sooth my dysregulated nervous system, I was becoming more present than ever.  I noticed it in my client, Joe, as well, each time he’d return home there was a new light shining in him.  This new house-sitting situation was shifting us at the core.  Him in the act of giving and me through receiving.  He was stepping into a new reality, one he could only dream of, and I was doing to the same, slowly unwinding giving myself space to breathe.

So here I am, on my own in a new environment with my cat Bella, four chickens, five quail and two peacocks and a peahen in my care.  It’s become my understanding that Bella hates Florida more than I did but after these last few months, she’s slowly finding the same peace within that I’m finding.  I was also a caring for my clients 90lb 13 yr old chocolate lab named Lasagna.  Even as he aged it’s clear he didn’t realize how old he was.  He had high level puppy energy, and I can say for a fact his dad, my client and friend Joe, never let him think he was anything but a big puppy.  Unfortunately, as I write this, we had to say goodbye to him a few weeks back as he transitioned over the rainbow bridge.  As sad as it is the timing was synchronistic as my client is now stepping into a new life that has him on a continuous high-level path of self-exploration and achievement.  His work has him focused on a new direction with new life goals.  Suddenly he has the life he’s always dreamt of even if it means no longer having more freedom working for himself.  Even in his grief he sees how the path they walked together for almost 14 years had shifted and gently asked for change.

I often reflect and ask myself, “how did I get here”?  The path was so clear, and simple, I felt it in every fiber of my being even as my brain was screaming “No not Florida!”  There was no figuring it out or trying to make it work.  That’s the fate and destiny part.  I grew up on Long Island, born and raised.  I never imagined myself leaving.  Even as I went through my last divorce, I clung to the idea of staying in the only place that felt like home.

Just before Florida called I was living in Stony Brook, Long Island with my friend who I shared a house with since October 2018 when we spontaneously moved in together after her fiancé suddenly passed and my divorce became final.  It was a slightly challenging friendship; we were like night and day.  We made it work not asking too much of each other and knew the boundaries.  In 2023 we moved to Stony Brook and for me it felt like this was the last place we would live together.  I was feeling a change I couldn’t see clearly and at the time, I didn’t realize life wasn’t simply changing my address, it was quietly asking me to become someone I hadn’t met yet.  The friendship had stabilized both of us as it was meant to.  I could feel a new adventure waiting for me to say yes!

In February 2024 her daughter’s living situation shifted and through a conversation we had I asked her “if you could live anywhere where would that be?”  She said Florida and I said you’re free so go and start living your best life…she did, however her and her mom missed each other and yet again the Universe had other plans.  I was not going to Florida because I was on a mission to get on a five-acre homestead somewhere (again not Florida!) and grow herbs for the herbal business my friend and I had just started together.  We talked about the homestead and setting ourselves up for an herb farm making herbal remedies (my part of the business) and hair care products (her part of the business).  The more we talked about it the more we disagreed on where to live.  She didn’t like the idea of Florida but it’s where her daughter was and I, in my mind, was headed to the mountains somewhere but I could see the writing on the wall, we were not getting a five-acre homestead together, or land to grow herbs nor would we continue our friendship.  It was clear as day, that timeline was quickly coming to an end.  It had served its purpose beautifully.  Now there was a new adventure calling and I needed to be ok with wherever life was taking me.

Next week I’ll share how an incredible opportunity, a willingness to trust my intuition, and a few surprising turns brought me an unexpected detour.  Along the way I’ll share some of the mindset shifts that helped me recognize—and step into—a life I never would have imagined for myself…

Next week I’ll share how an invitation to journey across the ocean unexpectedly became the first step toward the life I never imagined I’d be living.

It amazes me that I had no awareness of what was happening within me.  This was the direct response to the crisis I was in but blind to.  I was going though my second divorce and it felt like my world was falling apart because I was not aware enough to see I was falling into place.  This happened  throughout a lifetime of self-defeating thoughts, driven by extreme emotional turmoil about who I was.

I had no self-esteem, I thought I did but I was fooling myself. I can very clearly see now what I was in denial about back then. I was married for the first time in 1986 and a few short years later went through a painful divorce in 1990 after finding out my husband was having an affair. I was only 30 and felt like a failure. I really didn’t have any support in my family dynamic growing. up and never learned how to love myself properly.  I’ll go into this at some point in future blogs.

After that marriage ended, I did what many other people do and jumped back into the dating pool not giving myself proper time to heal.  I needed to find another relationship in order to save my pride and declare my self-worth.  Which is exactly what happened and after a few short months of dating In 1991 I moved in with him, which seemed to make sense since my parents and brother were leaving Long Island headed for North Carolina.

I didn’t want to leave my great paying corporate job or my boyfriend and right on que we got married in August of 1995.  It was my second big wedding, his first.  We lived in a two bedroom apartment and everything was fine until we were away on vacation with his family in Germany  when his father passed suddenly.  This was extremely traumatic for my husband since it happened just outside the entrance into the plane.  A few years later our relationship started to decline and we filed for a separation, eventually leading to a divorce at the end of 1999.

In March of 2000 I moved into my own apartment, giving him the house we bought together.  Of course I met someone just prior to moving out and was having issues with spotting in between my period.  I went to the gynecologist but she didn’t seen concerned so I wasn’t concerned until it became heavier and more frequent.  I was only in my new apartment three or four weeks when suddenly in the middle of a sound sleep when a very loud booming male voice yelled at me “YOU HAVE CANCER, GO TO THE DOCTOR!!!” This is where my story begins…

I’ve always been connected on a very deep level.  I can remember laying in bed at night talking to angels and guides around the age of 4-years old, only at that age I didn’t fully understand what I was doing. Sometimes the feelings were overwhelming and I’d get scared. I looked for guidance, but my psychic ability wasn’t looked upon favorably by my mom, so it wasn’t until 2000 when I had my first challenge with cancer that I recognized things needed to shift in my life.  And shift they did!

A New Path Begins

Having cancer really helped me bring my awareness back online. Major life altering events are always the catalyst for bringing us back in touch with our spiritual nature. I was always spiritual, the cancer catapulted me onto a whole new path looking for answers as to why cancer happened to me, what did I need to do to get rid of it and how could I make sure it never came back. There was no looking back.

After a minor procedure to removed the tips of my cervix my oncologist wasn’t sure he could give me an all clear which felt frustrating.  I remember putting that in the back of my mind, I didn’t want to focus of not getting better.  I returned to my gynecologist for a check up after a few weeks and asked her what I needed to do to make sure I stayed free of cancer and she responded with “I don’t really know”.  I was dumbstruck at that response and decided I was going to do whatever it took to make sure I didn’t get cancer again.

I went on Weight Watchers, lost 96 pounds, started working out and felt really good about how healthy my body was becoming but that wasn’t enough.  After the second run in with cancer in 2004 I started to look for answers why a healthy body, healthy diet and healthy lifestyle wasn’t enough.  As I went through this second treatment of cryogenics, freezing the cells off, I met someone through a friend.  We dated a while and at the end of 2025 I got married again…third time’s a charm, right?? Not really, maybe in theory but it did give me exactly what I needed as well as what he needed although I didn’t really see it at the time. This is where it got really interesting.

Cancer Becomes My Saving Grace

I maintained working out and healthy eating but had a minor injury to my left glute on a stair machine.  I decided I needed to seek out a chiropractor to help with whatever what misaligned.  During my search I found a Chiropractor who was on the cutting edge of healing through his forward thinking. He was into Functional Medicine, meditation, reiki and so much more.  I saw him a few times and during our conversations he realized the amount of knowledge I had already gained through the process of discovery and suggested I enroll in the Institute for Integrative Nutrition to help give me a better understanding of nutrition and Mind/Body/Soul wellness. I

I enrolled in 2006, IIN provided a wealth of information on nutrition ranging from raw food diets to macrobiotic diets but they also brought in so many wonderful modalities such as Ayurveda, Meditation, Kundalini Yoga as well as many other healing modalities through some very amazing leading-edge speakers like Debbie Ford, John Douliard, Dr. Esselstyn, and many others every week in person to assist in our journey.

It was the best time of my life, I was in class with about 800 other like-minded people and we shared our insight, our stories and a meal in the first Whole Foods I’d ever visited which was right downstairs from our class located in Columbus Circle NYC. I was loving life and in doing so I activated my joy which activated my intuitive abilities…who knew it would be that simple?

I started seeing Auras again as my third eye was opening again! Life was getting more interesting, and the cancer was in remission. Woo-hoo! I continued working on me and took a Reiki 1 & 2 class while attending the IIN program. As the program was coming to an end the chiropractor asked me to become part of his center so he could offer nutrition and Reiki.  I rented a tiny room in his office so I could see clients while still working at my very stressful corporate job.  I pushed myself to stay focused on my wellness and soon word was going around at work that I had healed cancer and just like Lucy in the Peanuts cartoon people were stopping by my office to ask me health related questions. I realized I was on to something! So many people were sick like I had been and needed help figuring their life out.

My Big Ah-Ha

As I listened to peoples stories I started to dig deeper and finally connect the dots…emotions and thoughts are the culprits, that’s what makes us sick. I can remember the feeling I had in that moment realizing I never needed to be sick again!

As my awareness built I was suddenly having a strong calling to be a healer as if a switch had been flipped within me.  It sounded so far fetched, I wasn’t even sure what that meant at the time but it was enough to push me to leave my very well-paying corporate job May 2008 in the beginning of the recession to begin a new career in my own healing practice. Side note, my husband was not happy, and that was ok because I was for the first time ever! I had the calling and needed to follow it.

My mom was visiting the summer of 2008 and mentioned we should start looking for an office for me to work out of.  I wanted to leave the chiropractor, it was too busy and the noise made it hard to do reiki.  I wanted quiet, and a beautiful healing space presented five minutes from my home in the village of Bellport.  I knew it was the space because the office number was 11.  I had written a gratitude journal for months, each entry telling the Universe what I wanted in my new space…

1-Plenty of parking, 2- First floor entry for easy access, 3- My personal office and a large room for events 4- a kind landlord (he was) 5- a kitchenette so I could offer water, or tea.  6- a space for me to sell crystals and herbal medicine (I would soon start practicing herbal medicine in 2009 with Susun Weed, that was the beginning) 7- A beautiful waiting room (a client of mine loved it so much she donated a beautiful wooden church pew she had in her house as the bench in the seating ares… imagine that! I didn’t see it as a church item I saw it as an offering of the divine.)

All of my manifestations happened, without more than the effort of putting the pen to the paper.

In 2012 I had a real a-ha moment as I opened more, my intuitive ability was increasing. I continued to explore different avenues and philosophies, opening and engaging in my psychic ability all the way. My Reiki teacher had put a deck of Rider Waite Tarot cards in my hand and I found myself exploring those. The more I explored the faster I was opening and enjoying my life, even through some of the hardships like losing my mom during my divorce in June 2013.  That’s a story for another time.

The pain was there but the work kept me grounded and strong, pushing me to continue to explore all that was in front of me. I’m grateful for all those experiences!  I know my mom wanted me to keep going, to do what she didn’t allow herself to do because of fear.  There’s always one very awakened soul in a family.  My mom was the one in hers and I was the one in mine.

The last few years I’ve had many mentors from all over the US who helped me make sense of what I was connecting to and receiving from my guides. I always allowed my guides to point me in the direction of who the best person for me was in that moment. I now take all the information, modalities, and sacred tools and apply them to my sessions in both a healing capacity as well as through spiritual guidance although I don’t do reiki as a hands on modality anymore because my work now requires I tune in at a soul level for support and guidance.  Everything, unless through special request, is done online through Zoom.

I’m still learning, growing and evolving. We should never stop because it’s a pathway, one step leads to a new awareness and the next step to another new awareness and so on. We are here for the purpose of our soul’s evolution; it’s an excavation through our human experience to come to fully embrace our authenticity. In standing fully in our authenticity, we find our truth which when harnessed and be embodied which then unlocks the magic that life has to offer and sets our soul on fire…there is no better feeling than knowing yourself at the deepest level.

Work with me, I will help you Return to Yourself…

Back in 2012 I had no idea these anomalies were causing my migraine like headaches. I was aware we had just stepped up our Ascension game with the 121212 / 122112 gateways but didn’t fully understand how everything worked so I could put it together for a better “in body” experience. It’s my desire for you to understand it so you can maximize your experience through your awareness of / to these space weather conditions.

I remember calling my friend Jill, who lives in Minnesota, back in 2015 talking about CMEs and how they were creating our headaches. Neither of us suffered from headaches before. Jill was the only person I knew back then that was where I was in the work. She was an incredible galactic channel whose higher self was known as G.R.A.C.E which stands for Galactic Realization Assignment for Civilizations Evolution.

I had also received several higher selves the two most prominent being Aluna, my 5D faerie self and F.A.I.T.H which is an acronym for Frequency Activator Intermediary Transcending Humanity, which was my 9D galactic self from Nibiru who carries the frequency of Rose Quartz (350 hz) which immediately allows others to elevate and harmonize their heart center. I was actually tested for this. When F.A.I.T.H came through to me I was undergoing a massive upgrade (in bed barely conscious for 4 days in 2019) through which there was a celebration on Nibiru for my awakening and I was gifted a string of Rose Quartz around my neck with the words “never forget who you are”. I’ve worked hard to embody that soul essence over the years.

I’m sharing my story again for you to see how these energies can assist in our awakening evolution. We can make them bad focusing only on how much pain or discomfort we feel OR we can use them to open ourselves to our souls truth and live a fully abundant life serving our soul as opposed to our human condition.

EVERYTHING is here to support our souls journey, it’s simply a matter of how we see it. The choice is always ours!

Light codes enter through the occipital area at the back of the head (Mouth of God) and travel along the Vegus Nerve which connects to our brain and travels down through our neck moving all the way down into our abdomen. The Vegus Nerve is a conduit for moving light frequencies through our body supporting our light body upgrades which can, at times, feel painful.

It’s the largest organ in the autonomic nervous system serving to regulate our body’s natural functions like breathing, our heart beat and more. It’s called the “soul” nerve connecting our entire nervous system.

One of its main functions is receiving fight or flight messages to keep us safe which means our body is responding to the signal of the Vegus Nerve every moment.

When solar flares hit the intensity of light from the flare entering our body could trigger the Vegus Nerve sending us into fight or flight mode. This is why we often have neck, shoulder and head aches. We’re also experiencing all new issues in our spine, presenting in back aches or stiffness.

The degree of resistance we are in with regard to life and “what is” results in the level of pain we carry. Resistance = pain

The last flare was the largest yet, X8.8!! This could’ve felt so much worse than it did. This flare was 15 times wider than the Earth but because it was pointing slightly away from Earth we didn’t feel it quite as intensely.

I do not see this slowing down. These flares have been ascending with us becoming consistently larger. I am directly evolved and connected through the lineage of our Sun. We can expect more support from our Sun as it ascends into a Star as Gaia assumes responsibility for becoming her own Sun. We are in amazing times!

Moral of the story: find ways to let go of resistance. We must accept that we can’t change the outer reality, it doesn’t exist (technically). We can only shift our thoughts about it, our present reality and state of being. Having a deeper of understanding for “what is” can support our journey. Listen to your body, it will show you the way! I love U❤️

No filter, no special effects just a conversation with the Sun in expressing my gratitude and appreciation in being able to commune together today in this moment.

As I was transmitting these heartfelt feelings telepathically I saw Solaris expanding and contracting, like a dance and took this picture. In that moment it felt like a hug as our beloved sun transformed his / her self into this expression for a photo op moment.

So many pictures of the Sun are revealing it’s transformation into a Star which has been taking place for many years. Once Gaia expressed her readiness to evolve and began her ascension (2012) the Sun was able to begin its ascension. Gaia is becoming her own sun in a sense which frees Solaris to expand into its next highest state.

Humanity are not the only beings ascending consciousness, the galaxy is evolving with us. All beings, planets, animals, plants etc are evolving. You may be feeling these shifts. Being present will help clarify what’s taking place in our reality.

Everything reflects our inner being. It’ll show us where our work is or how far we’ve come. Staying present helps us tune in to what’s showing up for us so we can stay on track with our own trajectory for our ascension. We fill our own cup so much that it’s overflowing. Anything coming from outside of ourselves is an added bonus to the joy we already feel otherwise we don’t entertain it. We see it, observe it and let it be understanding it’s needed by someone else as everything serves a purpose, maybe not our purpose in that moment

We are connected to everything. In these higher frequencies everything is happening at accelerated speeds. We must be present for all of our creations. We can avoid mis-creation by paying attention to our thoughts, words, actions and emotions.

Creator codes are high. If you feel angry, frustrated, sad etc grab a colored pencil / pen and start drawing. It doesn’t matter what you draw it’s about the energy exchange of the drawing / creation process that can shift us into higher level creator codes in order to shift the emotional / mental bodies. Keep drawing until you feel yourself let go. I love you ❤️

As a collective we are going through a transformational corridor as we enter August. We’re all feeling this transition in different ways. Some are going through heightened expansion of consciousness with head aches / pressures etc, others are feeling extreme anxiety, vertigo/ dizzy as the field adjusts to these higher frequencies, skin issues as the Star particles active our crystalline / Kryst/ Christ self.

Many are only just coming into consciousness, we must hold compassion, love and observe, for all as well as ourselves, without taking in any projections. We are a placeholder/ anchor for Divine cosmic light. It’s imp not to compare yourself to another’s journey as we are all on a path unique to us. We must let go of judgments of how it should be / look / feel etc so we do not entangle through old patterns and habits. Step away and take a breath. The physical body is expressing itself in all new ways, our job is to go with the flow.

Some of you, like myself, will feel deep states of detachment as we shed more of the old self in order to bring through higher level experiences where old outdated programs/ patterns / habits can no longer exist. This can be confusing. It can feel like we no longer feel connected to people, places, jobs or things that used to feel comfortable. Transformation requires presence and an open heart free from judgment especially our own.

A key to making this transitional passage more comfortable is to disconnect from electronics, especially social media. These lower frequencies can drain our light body which adds to the fatigue happening from the Photonic light bombardment.

Expressing ourselves in our creator state is super important right now. I‘m enjoying the freedom I feel in painting, communing with Gaia, nourishing myself with high vibe foods etc, communing with my highly charged high vibin online community as well as my private sessions. This detachment state is detachment from the old self whereI felt the need to be seen or be i’d be forgotten in order to “keep a pace” as a wayshower. I no longer feel that need as my Universe supports all my needs so I can bring forth what’s most needed in this moment with no agenda other than offering the newest transmission received from my higher levels. Now I show up with information I trust will be of interest since you already know the work, especially those of you who’ve engaged with me over the last 7-8 yrs that I’ve been sharing the “how to’s” of everything ascension. Staying in the work is the key and will make a huge difference in how these next few months play out for you.

Stay present, watch your words / thoughts / actions / emotions to see what you’re creating. If you are judging another on any level you are judging yourself, especially if you are judging yourself as better than another you are not seeing as your equal. We are ALL one. Law Of One, that’s how the higher realms flow. Judgment is not part of the New Earth Realms, it has to end in order for us to evolve together in unity. Be love always, I love you ❤️

Solar rays continue to create collective expansion of consciousness, this can result in headaches, migraines, head pressure, third eye pressure, blurry vision, neck / shoulder aches. Our neural pathways carry the light codes through our body. Our nervous system is getting hammered!

During these Ascension/ DNA Upgrades rest & hydrate. Skullcap tincture or tea is a great herb to support our nervous system and relieve general headaches/ head pressure.

Valerian Tincture is also great for tension headaches which focuses in the forehead / eye area. Both Skullcap & Valerian tincture should be taken as a 1/4 teaspoon in water or tea every hour until the headache subsides. I’m an herbalist since 2009. Please do not use Google to choose an herb. The information is often times incorrect. Seek out a trained herbalist.

If you try these either of these suggestions please let me know if they help you. Rest is always my first choice as these light code activations require us to surrender to what is ❤️

Some of you are getting called to service.  If this is you this is where your focus is as your new reality is expanding through this awareness.  Follow the breadcrumbs and ask each morning upon waking “how can I be of service” and watch / listen for your inner guidance to show you.

Some of you are feeling disconnected /  lost, a loss of connection to the old self.  This is a template wipe, the old 3D self is being dissolved and replaced by higher light frequencies which can feel uncomfortable.  During this process we can’t feel a connection to anything, our job, relationships, things we enjoyed doing or even our emotions.  This is a very important shift taking place as the old template is being overlayed with the new template which shifts us into the higher realms.  Here we loose touch with the old 3D distortions which can feel overwhelming.  Being present, feeling it all without judgment to what is happening or what you are feeling is key. It can last hours, days or months.  The more you can feel into everything without needing the “why” the easier the transition will be as new codes activate in your field.  This is a heightened time of creation, our creator codes kick in which can help us bring in new work and creative opportunities.

We have reached the point now where Gaia has released duality and polarity.  The 3D timeline is done.   If you haven’t felt it directly in your reality you may be experiencing it through telepathy or new connections with your higher self / higher realms.  It’s important to remember our body is tied to Gaia, if she lets go WE must let go or we carry it in our field until something forces us to let go to see differently.  Thinking the same old thoughts, holding the same old beliefs, habits, patterns etc will keep us locked into the 3D matrix.  Our energy / frequency will attract / create our experience.  It’s important to get clear on what we are creating through our emotions and thoughts. The mind controls the illusion which becomes our reality that we think is real because the Magnetics that lock it in place for us on our Earth are so strong. The change in the outer world we desire is really a change within us.  We must change what we perceive as our truth which means we turn off / tune out of the outer world and go within.  We get quiet and listen for our inner whisper from our higher self which will help us shed the old limiting beliefs in order to create new higher level awareness.

If you are tuning to any stories of what’s going to happen in the next few days, months etc let them go.  They are the distraction of the matrix in order to get you to stay locked in to the old duality / polarity game.  When we tune out of the narratives our emotional body can calm down and stop driving us forward unconsciously so we can get back into the clarity the mind offers. We’ve done a great job being emotional, training ourselves to be reactive.  Now it’s time to shift out of our emotions, into our mind in order to become responsive / responsible.

My rule of thumb is if it creates fear within you it’s not on our organic Ascension timeline and we must let it go no matter how intriguing it may be to explore.  It has zero purpose in our Ascension and only serves as a distraction.  New realities / realms are created through presence. Practice being present and watch how fast you create new realities / realms.  In the blink of an eye life can change into all higher level experiences. Our job is to see the “game” we may not be aware we’re playing.

This week is a week of Freedom codes in a way we haven’t experienced before. Are you going to show up for them and let them help support your next level shift or are you going to stay stuck in the old creation waiting to see what happens next. It’s up to us, always!  We must be the change we want to see. If something / someone presents in our reality and triggers us thank it / them then get quiet and do a self check to see where our energy is. It’s always us attracting our experience to us which means we must consciously change our state of being in order to experience a new reality. It’s that simple or perhaps that complicated if we haven’t been doing the work.

I wish you a beautiful week of Freedom (codes) and higher level everything. We are in extraordinary times.  Be present to witness the opportunities for change available to us.  If you are reading this you are an anchor for these codes.  Our combined collective experience holding these codes through awareness  is what shifts the collective of humanity who are not yet there. Please join me In anchoring codes this week to up level our realm shift experience creating our New Earth.  I love you ❤️